Looking for God...A prayer based off of Job 23
Oh Lord! My heart is heavy. If only I knew where to find you. If only I could come to your seat. I would tell you everything...all my pain, frustrations, complaints. You would speak to me and I would listen and understand. You would give me strength.
I look ahead, and cannot see you. I look behind...I still can't see you. I look to the left, where I've seen you work before...you're not there. I look to the right, and it seems as though you've hidden yourself...I can't see you there either.
In the midst of all of this, I am comforted knowing that you know where I am. You're simply trying me right now and, if I hold on to you, I will come out, bright and beautiful as gold.
I am following your steps. I do not decline your ways, but rather follow them. I have kept your commandments. Your commandments are more necessary to me than food.
Whatever you desire, you do. You've given me the thing I am going through. You have softened my heart.
Amen.
I look ahead, and cannot see you. I look behind...I still can't see you. I look to the left, where I've seen you work before...you're not there. I look to the right, and it seems as though you've hidden yourself...I can't see you there either.
In the midst of all of this, I am comforted knowing that you know where I am. You're simply trying me right now and, if I hold on to you, I will come out, bright and beautiful as gold.
I am following your steps. I do not decline your ways, but rather follow them. I have kept your commandments. Your commandments are more necessary to me than food.
Whatever you desire, you do. You've given me the thing I am going through. You have softened my heart.
Amen.